I could tell you were lonely, cause I was lonely too. The haunting look in your eyes when my hands were on your face. The way your body fit against mine. That gentleness was my undoing.
You made me feel like I could be ready, ready to love someone new.
You made me wish I could tell you that I had been looking for you.
Instead of telling you the story of the One I never thought I would lose.
I would have given anything to tell you that you might be the one I took a chance on.
To let the faint stirrings in my soul, awaken into a storm that consumed us both.
I stood at the edge of the cliff, hesitating, looking for a sign from you.
Listening to my brain tell me not to jump, feeling my heart whisper “you don’t have to jump, you just have to let yourself fall.”
I dove into you like water.
Letting the stillness and silence surround us, bodies twisting and turning effortlessly.
I reached out to you, over and over.
Trying to bring you into me but you just turned away.
Leaving me to the darkness and fear.
The pain filled my chest and I sunk like a stone, praying it would pull me under.
Pulling me back to the place where i couldn’t feel anymore.
Letting rage at my own stupidity burn away any glimpse of hope for love.
Tucking back into myself so far that the light couldn’t reach me.
So it would stop tempting my heart to beat again.